i have posted previously about friendships... this week alyssa and i were talking about friends of choice vs. friends of convenience... i think there are also friends for a season vs. friends for all seasons... (and in my head is resonating - "i'll be your girl for all seasons... all the year through...") which may be factored into the convenience/choice discussion...
amy sent out a mass email to the camp staff that we worked on - as kind of an update on her life... which caused a lot of other people from our staff to reply with what is going on in their lives... it's cool, but kind of weird... i really haven't talked to some of them since that summer... over 2 and a half years ago (in august, 3)... i keep up with amy - who could have easily been a friend of convenience for that summer, but God wanted us to be friends of choice... for all seasons (which i'm eternally grateful for!!!)
at the same time, i randomly have been emailing with a girl i went to seminary with my first year - who got married and moved away last year... i hadn't talked to her in several months and out of the blue, she ran into jeff in california - which spurred on communication between the two of us...
and then... i've recently been in communication with one of the girls i spent time with in east asia... and she saw a guy on campus who we both knew in east asia - and he had been talking to people too...
one time in college, i drew this picture... what i thought my life would look like... it was this one line that stretched from one corner of the page all the way to the other corner... and there were all different colors of lines, intersecting each other and all impacting my line in some way, even if it didn't directly intersect my line... it had an impact on another line that intersected mine... you get the idea...
but there was this one green line - it was my favorite... and it was a line that was really close to my line for a while, then it separated, but twisted back around and intersected my line at a different point... that line made me happy... it was that line that i knew would bring a happy surprise later on... friendships that seemingly disappear, only to re-enter later on... and i'm not saying that from that point on (the second intersection), that i'll be friends with them forever... but then, at that point, it brings encouragement from someone who knew me a long time ago, in a different place... and i'm reminded... i came from somewhere... God has brought me farther than i was in that place... so i'm reminded of where i once was, but encouraged by where i am now...
and that's what i've been feeling this week... out of nowhere, a whole lot of people in my life who i haven't heard from in months and years, out of the blue, are there... and it's kind of weird... but nice...
i made up a new expression about a new friend i made recently... "happy surprised..." - i'm happy surprised by all the new-old people in my life... all kinds of people from my past who have recircled and intersected my life once again...
and in my mind, it's likely, that once all this "hey, how's it going? what are you up to these days?" stuff passes, it will go back to normal... i don't expect to stay in close contact with them forever or even for the next several months... but i'm happy surprised that they're still there and we can encourage each other again, if only as a busboy in a restaurant type of way...
Apr 28, 2005
Apr 25, 2005
so you're telling me there's a chance...
i am totally excited because i was dreading my class and then i found out we don't have it... but i'm already cleared from work, so i'm not going to go back to work, because i already have the time off... is this unethical? do i care? i hate mondays!!!
so i emailed the guy - you know... from the last post... think... IDIOT!!!
i emailed him last week and asked if he wanted to go get coffee when he was down for school this week... so finally... today - i get an email from him... "maybe," he says, and goes on to say about how he needs to study... but "we'll see."
so i'm thinking... "is this a write-off?" - i'm not sure... still not sure... but in my head, here's what i thought...
Lloyd Christmas: What are the chances of a guy like you and a girl like me... ending up together?
Mary Swanson: Not good.
Lloyd Christmas: Not good like one in a hundred?
Mary Swanson: I'd say more like one in a million.
Lloyd Christmas: So you're telling me there's a chance?
that's what i thought... we'll see what happens... i just need to get it out there before my feelings/emotions really get involved... which i'm thinking is going to happen soon... i just don't want to get hurt... but the fear of not putting it out there and wondering "what if?" for a really long time is worse than the getting hurt part, i think...
we'll see...
so i emailed the guy - you know... from the last post... think... IDIOT!!!
i emailed him last week and asked if he wanted to go get coffee when he was down for school this week... so finally... today - i get an email from him... "maybe," he says, and goes on to say about how he needs to study... but "we'll see."
so i'm thinking... "is this a write-off?" - i'm not sure... still not sure... but in my head, here's what i thought...
Lloyd Christmas: What are the chances of a guy like you and a girl like me... ending up together?
Mary Swanson: Not good.
Lloyd Christmas: Not good like one in a hundred?
Mary Swanson: I'd say more like one in a million.
Lloyd Christmas: So you're telling me there's a chance?
that's what i thought... we'll see what happens... i just need to get it out there before my feelings/emotions really get involved... which i'm thinking is going to happen soon... i just don't want to get hurt... but the fear of not putting it out there and wondering "what if?" for a really long time is worse than the getting hurt part, i think...
we'll see...
Apr 22, 2005
idiot... gosh!!!
there's this guy i'm interested in... he goes to school with me and was in town for class and he came to my apartment the other night... there were other people there, but as soon as they had the opportunity, they abandoned me (because they know i'm interested in the guy)...
what i should have done when they left: "hey, do you want to watch a movie?"
what i did: just sat there while we watched tv for a little while and then he left...
and then, after he left, and i called everyone who would care that he had been over and a few who wouldn't care but would listen to me anyway... all of them said, "you should have asked him to watch a movie..." after the 3rd person said it, i thought...
IDIOT!!
in my best napoleon dynamite voice...
next time i'll know... if there is a next time...
what i should have done when they left: "hey, do you want to watch a movie?"
what i did: just sat there while we watched tv for a little while and then he left...
and then, after he left, and i called everyone who would care that he had been over and a few who wouldn't care but would listen to me anyway... all of them said, "you should have asked him to watch a movie..." after the 3rd person said it, i thought...
IDIOT!!
in my best napoleon dynamite voice...
next time i'll know... if there is a next time...
Apr 18, 2005
Here's the thing. I made that tape special for today. My special Monday morning for YOU... SPECIAL.
i wish someone had made me a special monday morning mixed tape... it's definitely been a monday... i'm exhausted...
plus i'm confused...
what is my passion in life?
my dream? and why does everyone need to know? did they ask that question 50 years ago? will that help me figure out something big in my life? am i missing out on something because i don't know?
what do i want to be doing in 3-5 years?
breathing would be preferrable... living above the poverty level would be nice... (not that i don't now... i'd just like to continue the trend...)
plus i'm kind of lonely...
i do, however, have a date with a certain red haired friend tonight (who is one of the coolest girls i know) to watch the bachelor - we hate it, but it's fun to watch together and laugh at... my favorite quote of erin's is, "awww... her daddy didn't love her enough..." about the ho-bag girls who throw themselves at a pretty unattractive guy...
what are you gonna do?
i don't know... what are you gonna do?
i'm calling it a day...
plus i'm confused...
what is my passion in life?
my dream? and why does everyone need to know? did they ask that question 50 years ago? will that help me figure out something big in my life? am i missing out on something because i don't know?
what do i want to be doing in 3-5 years?
breathing would be preferrable... living above the poverty level would be nice... (not that i don't now... i'd just like to continue the trend...)
plus i'm kind of lonely...
i do, however, have a date with a certain red haired friend tonight (who is one of the coolest girls i know) to watch the bachelor - we hate it, but it's fun to watch together and laugh at... my favorite quote of erin's is, "awww... her daddy didn't love her enough..." about the ho-bag girls who throw themselves at a pretty unattractive guy...
what are you gonna do?
i don't know... what are you gonna do?
i'm calling it a day...
Apr 15, 2005
just another manic friday...
i went to bed at a normal hour last night (11:00 - the earliest all week), and i've been waking up earlier... and today was no different... but i am thinking it doesn't do me any good to get up early... it takes me longer to wake up and i think i move slower, so i end up getting ready about the same time... BUT, i think i have more time, and it usually makes me late... sad...
i couldn't decide what to wear this morning... but i think i chose a cute outfit... usually fridays are casual friday (i can wear jeans), but i didn't want to brave the jeans today... there is a conference tonight and usually when there are people in the building, we're supposed to dress up like normal... but it's a collegiate ministry conference... do they care if i'm wearing jeans? not at all... but, i don't want to risk it...
so here's what i wear... grey slacks, dress shoes, my red "freestyle" t-shirt (that's what the front says) and my jean jacket... casual, but still dressy... good times... and i fixed my hair different today... if i fix it, i usually just straighten it... today i thought, i'll do something different - so it's more flipped out on the ends... but it took me longer to do... so that made me leave later than i should have...
then...
i get to the top of the hill, where i need to turn left (there's a stop light) after which, i need to turn right immediately to get on the interstate... i was trying to decide if i wanted to go get breakfast - but i thought, "i'm already late..." - so i opted not to do that... and the light was taking forever... i was behind a whole bunch of cars... and usually i don't have to wait that long... so i wait through 3 cycles... and i'm finally the second car in line... and i see what the problem is... the light isn't switching to green when it's supposed to switch... most of the cars were just going... not the car in front of me... we wait for another 2 cycles... and i thought, "should i honk?" - we could TOTALLY go... but i hate honking... so after the second cycle, a car behind me honked(thank you driver!!!) - and we went... but i was more than 10 minutes late to work - almost 15... but when i pulled up, no one in my office was here... no one knows that i was late... which is a good thing... but kind of frustrating - the one time i have a great excuse for being late, i don't even get to use it!!!
i thought i was going to have a slow day... not so much... i think i'll have plenty to keep me busy - and keep me here through the end of the day... i was hoping to leave early...
i have to be here all weekend to cover a conference for the paper... so much for a laid back weekend... fridays aren't supposed to be like this, are they??
i couldn't decide what to wear this morning... but i think i chose a cute outfit... usually fridays are casual friday (i can wear jeans), but i didn't want to brave the jeans today... there is a conference tonight and usually when there are people in the building, we're supposed to dress up like normal... but it's a collegiate ministry conference... do they care if i'm wearing jeans? not at all... but, i don't want to risk it...
so here's what i wear... grey slacks, dress shoes, my red "freestyle" t-shirt (that's what the front says) and my jean jacket... casual, but still dressy... good times... and i fixed my hair different today... if i fix it, i usually just straighten it... today i thought, i'll do something different - so it's more flipped out on the ends... but it took me longer to do... so that made me leave later than i should have...
then...
i get to the top of the hill, where i need to turn left (there's a stop light) after which, i need to turn right immediately to get on the interstate... i was trying to decide if i wanted to go get breakfast - but i thought, "i'm already late..." - so i opted not to do that... and the light was taking forever... i was behind a whole bunch of cars... and usually i don't have to wait that long... so i wait through 3 cycles... and i'm finally the second car in line... and i see what the problem is... the light isn't switching to green when it's supposed to switch... most of the cars were just going... not the car in front of me... we wait for another 2 cycles... and i thought, "should i honk?" - we could TOTALLY go... but i hate honking... so after the second cycle, a car behind me honked(thank you driver!!!) - and we went... but i was more than 10 minutes late to work - almost 15... but when i pulled up, no one in my office was here... no one knows that i was late... which is a good thing... but kind of frustrating - the one time i have a great excuse for being late, i don't even get to use it!!!
i thought i was going to have a slow day... not so much... i think i'll have plenty to keep me busy - and keep me here through the end of the day... i was hoping to leave early...
i have to be here all weekend to cover a conference for the paper... so much for a laid back weekend... fridays aren't supposed to be like this, are they??
Apr 14, 2005
almost famous...
after much encouragement from amy to see almost famous, i finally made the time for it last night... after the opening credits i was hooked, and after 30 minutes, i knew i was going to love it...
i love the coming-of-ageness that william goes through - and this sense of cool vs. uncool... in this real vs. non-real world... i really can't express it in words right this second... even though the coffee is kicking in, i just don't think i'll do it justice...
i know i'll never be the cool kid... i'm okay with that... in our weekly ritual of freaks and geeks episodes on tuesday night, we (dave, alyssa and i) tried to decide whether we were the "freaks" or the "geeks" - as we all had our laptops in our laps while we watched, we knew our fate... as much as we wanted to be the "freaks..." i always dreamed of being cool... and i think that's why i never was... if i would have owned up to my uncoolness, i probably would have been a lot cooler... i thought william was cool... not because he was famous but because he was real... and unafraid...
i love the quote that now resides on my sidebar... "the only true currency in this bankrupt world is what you share with someone else when you're uncool"
cameron crowe is brilliant... but he's probably never been cool... how cool is that?
i love the coming-of-ageness that william goes through - and this sense of cool vs. uncool... in this real vs. non-real world... i really can't express it in words right this second... even though the coffee is kicking in, i just don't think i'll do it justice...
i know i'll never be the cool kid... i'm okay with that... in our weekly ritual of freaks and geeks episodes on tuesday night, we (dave, alyssa and i) tried to decide whether we were the "freaks" or the "geeks" - as we all had our laptops in our laps while we watched, we knew our fate... as much as we wanted to be the "freaks..." i always dreamed of being cool... and i think that's why i never was... if i would have owned up to my uncoolness, i probably would have been a lot cooler... i thought william was cool... not because he was famous but because he was real... and unafraid...
i love the quote that now resides on my sidebar... "the only true currency in this bankrupt world is what you share with someone else when you're uncool"
cameron crowe is brilliant... but he's probably never been cool... how cool is that?
Apr 12, 2005
creative dating...
a book was pulled off my shelf this weekend... it's a book i bought at a christian book store - out of the bargain bin... i'm firmly convinced that the bargain book bin at the christian book store is one of the best places to find books...
this one in particular - creative dating, copyright 1986, by Doug Fields and Todd Temple, is hilarious... i bought it several months ago, but any time it's opened, it still generates much laughter... especially when shared with friends who laugh at almost anything...
fields and temple give some great ideas on the subject of dating, whether it is the approach, or the actual date, or gifts for that special someone or how to write notes to him/her.
my favorite section of the book (i think... but it's hard to say that any one part is better than another) is the "kiss avoidance procedures" section...
Kiss Avoidance Procedures
Kissing is incredible - when experienced with the right person. In case you do not happen to be with that person when about to be kissed, try one of these tactics:
what to say
this one in particular - creative dating, copyright 1986, by Doug Fields and Todd Temple, is hilarious... i bought it several months ago, but any time it's opened, it still generates much laughter... especially when shared with friends who laugh at almost anything...
fields and temple give some great ideas on the subject of dating, whether it is the approach, or the actual date, or gifts for that special someone or how to write notes to him/her.
my favorite section of the book (i think... but it's hard to say that any one part is better than another) is the "kiss avoidance procedures" section...
Kiss Avoidance Procedures
Kissing is incredible - when experienced with the right person. In case you do not happen to be with that person when about to be kissed, try one of these tactics:
what to say
- my lips are really sunburned
- i'm feeling sick all of a sudden
- i just had my braces tightened
- the last time i kissed, i bit my partner's lips off
- have you ever met my boyfriend? he is the bouncer at jake's dance hall.
- i am a pilgrim (puritan)
- these really are not my lips
- i have mononucleosis
- my parents are watching
- it's amazing how i can still taste the anchovy pizza i ate three hours ago
what to do
- give yourself a nosebleed
- clear your throat
- stick a plug of chewing tobacco in your mouth
- blow a chewing gum bubble in the other person's face
- have a runny nose
- put garlic in your mouth and cough
- flip your retainer or dentures in and out of your mouth
- put on a plastic nose and glasses
- put pepperoni in your teeth
saying goodnight at the doorstep
- tell a story that wears the person down so he or she will want to leave
- accidentally lean up against the door bell causing your parents or roommates to answer the door
- wear his jacket so he will get cold waiting at the door
- let your dog out and give it a big slobbery kiss.
i hope you enjoyed the tutorial on how to avoid the kiss... it continues to make me laugh... who carries around chewing tobacco, just in case... and i can think of ways these are funnier - saying "i just had my braces tightened" for someone who doesn't wear braces... perfect... and what if the guy is the one to say, "have you met my boyfriend?" - wow...
i haven't completely figured out how serious the authors are being... and since it was written in 1986, and by two youth guys - i'm sure it's not really supposed to be THAT serious... but it is pretty much hilarious to me now... i did a search earlier, and evidentally, there is a second installment. i bought it on amazon.com for .02... seriously... i can't wait... i ordered a couple of other books, too, which i am hoping will provide endless entertainment for sad people like me!
so enjoy... there may be more installments of "creative dating" - when i get my laptop hooked up to the internet, there will be more fun - and that's a promise!!!
Apr 8, 2005
have you ever been the victim of someone's good intentions?
this was a sermon title from one of my classmates during preaching class last semester... it resonated with me and i haven't forgotten it... maybe because i have been...
last night was one of them... i came up to my office to check email and get online after my "spiritual birthday" party... and i signed on to aim, and a friend signed on... it's a friend i haven't known very long (only a few months) and he's a single guy, almost 30... i thought about not saying hi, but i went ahead and did... we talked for a minute - about various topics... and then he asked me an odd question... which was something about whether or not it be okay to ask me an odd question... the second odd question started out as a statement about me being cool, nice girl... something along those lines. then he said something about whether or not i find value in myself... which is something i've struggled with, and is tons better - but as with everything like that, is a process... i'm not done growing yet... so i told him that... and then he asks me what i would do if i was single forever... and i said something about God giving me the grace to get through it and be okay with it and be happy in it... i was accused of using the "good church answer" but it not being true in my life... (i wish i had the conversation right here in front of me, but i don't and it was late last night...)
i was irate... i'm sure he meant well and was only asking or giving advice because he thought it would help...
it did the opposite... i wanted to throw something... i was mad, hurt, frustrated... just plain upset... i felt like he was saying that my singleness was a direct result of a poor spiritual condition... and the thing about it is... we're not even that good of friends... i have only known him for a few months... and we've only really been friends since february... if it had come from a really good friend who i have known a while, that's a different story... but the manner in which it came and from whom it came... well, it felt less than helpful...
so as i drove home, the thoughts that were going through my head were like, "you're a cool girl, but you're not okay - but you should think you are... but don't ever expect to get married - especially when you're not content in your singleness... because if you were... then you'd be married..." - those are kind of stupid thoughts that the christian culture pounds into girls' minds...
you're beautiful, smart, funny... you deserve the best... but only if you're completely happy being single... and once you are completely happy being single, that's when God gives you the man of your dreams... not until then... He promised that... once you're content in the Lord, He'll give you a spouse... doesn't it say that in the Bible??
and i'm sure all those people have the best intentions, but a lot of times when it comes to singleness advice, i feel like all i have gotten is lies... no... i know plenty of women who are content in the Lord and still single... and i know lots of not content ladies who God has blessed with husbands... there is no formula to conjure up a spouse biblically...
another thing (this post is old, but i had it saved as a draft... but it may get posted today...) is there are happy single women... and there are unhappy single women - at the same time... there are happily married women and unhappy married women... i don't begin to believe that marriage = happiness... yes... there are days when i'm okay being single, happy even (gasp)... and if God chooses for me to be married, there will be days when i'm unhappy, i'm sure, as a married woman... so i get frustrated when people try to push that belief on me - or think that i believe it... i'm not that dumb...
okay, just because i took the time to record these thoughts... they're going out there...
last night was one of them... i came up to my office to check email and get online after my "spiritual birthday" party... and i signed on to aim, and a friend signed on... it's a friend i haven't known very long (only a few months) and he's a single guy, almost 30... i thought about not saying hi, but i went ahead and did... we talked for a minute - about various topics... and then he asked me an odd question... which was something about whether or not it be okay to ask me an odd question... the second odd question started out as a statement about me being cool, nice girl... something along those lines. then he said something about whether or not i find value in myself... which is something i've struggled with, and is tons better - but as with everything like that, is a process... i'm not done growing yet... so i told him that... and then he asks me what i would do if i was single forever... and i said something about God giving me the grace to get through it and be okay with it and be happy in it... i was accused of using the "good church answer" but it not being true in my life... (i wish i had the conversation right here in front of me, but i don't and it was late last night...)
i was irate... i'm sure he meant well and was only asking or giving advice because he thought it would help...
it did the opposite... i wanted to throw something... i was mad, hurt, frustrated... just plain upset... i felt like he was saying that my singleness was a direct result of a poor spiritual condition... and the thing about it is... we're not even that good of friends... i have only known him for a few months... and we've only really been friends since february... if it had come from a really good friend who i have known a while, that's a different story... but the manner in which it came and from whom it came... well, it felt less than helpful...
so as i drove home, the thoughts that were going through my head were like, "you're a cool girl, but you're not okay - but you should think you are... but don't ever expect to get married - especially when you're not content in your singleness... because if you were... then you'd be married..." - those are kind of stupid thoughts that the christian culture pounds into girls' minds...
you're beautiful, smart, funny... you deserve the best... but only if you're completely happy being single... and once you are completely happy being single, that's when God gives you the man of your dreams... not until then... He promised that... once you're content in the Lord, He'll give you a spouse... doesn't it say that in the Bible??
and i'm sure all those people have the best intentions, but a lot of times when it comes to singleness advice, i feel like all i have gotten is lies... no... i know plenty of women who are content in the Lord and still single... and i know lots of not content ladies who God has blessed with husbands... there is no formula to conjure up a spouse biblically...
another thing (this post is old, but i had it saved as a draft... but it may get posted today...) is there are happy single women... and there are unhappy single women - at the same time... there are happily married women and unhappy married women... i don't begin to believe that marriage = happiness... yes... there are days when i'm okay being single, happy even (gasp)... and if God chooses for me to be married, there will be days when i'm unhappy, i'm sure, as a married woman... so i get frustrated when people try to push that belief on me - or think that i believe it... i'm not that dumb...
okay, just because i took the time to record these thoughts... they're going out there...
Apr 7, 2005
when wednesday feels like monday and thursday feels like friday... it makes for a short-feeling work week and a probable long friday...
this week i have been a major slacker at work. i haven't really done a whole lot of stuff... things have been so busy the last few weeks that i haven't really had time to breathe... well... this week i had breathing time and i've kind of shut down...
i have 2-3 design projects that i've been working on for weeks... (plural... weeks...) i should have had them done weeks ago... but i can't seem to be motivated to work on them... and that sucks... some churches are waiting on logos that i can't get together... i may have to get motivated tonight at home and get them done... they have to get done soon... my deadline for myself is monday...
i think i'm going to escape for the day... i want to run home, change clothes... go check out cell phone prices and then head over to the house where i used to live... we're celebrating my spiritual birthday tonight and we're having some of my favorite foods... black eyed peas, cornbread, fried okra... and something for dessert - maybe peach cobbler... mmmm....
i wish it was friday... but at least it's not monday!!!
this week i have been a major slacker at work. i haven't really done a whole lot of stuff... things have been so busy the last few weeks that i haven't really had time to breathe... well... this week i had breathing time and i've kind of shut down...
i have 2-3 design projects that i've been working on for weeks... (plural... weeks...) i should have had them done weeks ago... but i can't seem to be motivated to work on them... and that sucks... some churches are waiting on logos that i can't get together... i may have to get motivated tonight at home and get them done... they have to get done soon... my deadline for myself is monday...
i think i'm going to escape for the day... i want to run home, change clothes... go check out cell phone prices and then head over to the house where i used to live... we're celebrating my spiritual birthday tonight and we're having some of my favorite foods... black eyed peas, cornbread, fried okra... and something for dessert - maybe peach cobbler... mmmm....
i wish it was friday... but at least it's not monday!!!
Apr 5, 2005
unexpected...
today i had a monday... i hate mondays... HATE them... i was trying to think of something to eat for lunch before class... i'm trying not to eat fast food, so i opted for a triple venti extra hot stirred caramel macchiato from starbucks... when i walked in, starbucks jason was there... he's so nice... very friendly, in general... everytime i go in, he says, "hey!!! how are you?" - that kind of thing... well, i was complaining about monday - and so we talked about it... and then he told me i was going to love my drink - that it was going to be really good... and he hands it to me, and we say our goodbyes as i am walking out the door and taking a drink of my coffee... PERFECT... it was so good... i left starbucks beaming... huge highlight of my monday... thanks, starbucks jason... i owe him a thank you note, i think...
class was pretty boring and my afternoon at work was pretty uneventful... my newest thing at work is focusing on the website... the print shop is pretty slow... and our website is pretty bad... so i'm going to try and learn dreamweaver so that i can redo our website from scratch and make it look cool... it can't be much worse... i went and talked to boss cameron in his doorway... and we talked for a minute and then he said he wanted to ask me a question... i ended up going in and sitting in the chair across from his desk... and he asked me a personal question about this retirement party we had for a coworker last week... and that began a discussion about single women in ministry/married women in ministry... christian singleness... all kinds of stuff... after he asked me the first question, which was pretty general... i sat there thinking about how to answer and totally got teary-eyed... unexpected... it was a good talk, but not one i was expecting to have this afternoon... my final analysis (which i verified with someone else) is that a lot of times single women aren't necessarily verified in ministry - or considered as worthwhile as married women in ministry - regardless of if their husbands are in ministry... that may not be true... but it feels that way a lot of times... anyway - unexpected conversation with boss cameron today...
i was talking to new friend (amy's friend first) jeremy tonight on im... i've never really known anyone who doesn't really like cherry flavored stuff besides me... but jeremy doesn't either... there have been a few things about us that overlap... like our overwhelming coolness... and liking the lake better than the beach... random stuff like that... (maybe i'm not so weird after all... actually, that's probably not true...) unexpected... but a fun end to my day...
i'm going to bed before midnight... way unexpected, but very exciting!!!
class was pretty boring and my afternoon at work was pretty uneventful... my newest thing at work is focusing on the website... the print shop is pretty slow... and our website is pretty bad... so i'm going to try and learn dreamweaver so that i can redo our website from scratch and make it look cool... it can't be much worse... i went and talked to boss cameron in his doorway... and we talked for a minute and then he said he wanted to ask me a question... i ended up going in and sitting in the chair across from his desk... and he asked me a personal question about this retirement party we had for a coworker last week... and that began a discussion about single women in ministry/married women in ministry... christian singleness... all kinds of stuff... after he asked me the first question, which was pretty general... i sat there thinking about how to answer and totally got teary-eyed... unexpected... it was a good talk, but not one i was expecting to have this afternoon... my final analysis (which i verified with someone else) is that a lot of times single women aren't necessarily verified in ministry - or considered as worthwhile as married women in ministry - regardless of if their husbands are in ministry... that may not be true... but it feels that way a lot of times... anyway - unexpected conversation with boss cameron today...
i was talking to new friend (amy's friend first) jeremy tonight on im... i've never really known anyone who doesn't really like cherry flavored stuff besides me... but jeremy doesn't either... there have been a few things about us that overlap... like our overwhelming coolness... and liking the lake better than the beach... random stuff like that... (maybe i'm not so weird after all... actually, that's probably not true...) unexpected... but a fun end to my day...
i'm going to bed before midnight... way unexpected, but very exciting!!!
Apr 3, 2005
lee ann = jessica
i have this cute friend lee ann... i like to tell lee ann stories sometimes... anyone that knows me and has been around me for a good amount of time has heard at least one of the lee ann stories...
this weekend, for some reason, i've been inundated with jessica simpson... newlyweds has been on mtv a lot... and then tonight, the rerun of when jessica and nick were on snl was on... and as i was watching it, it hit me... jessica simpson is just like my friend lee ann...
i could see lee ann confused about chicken of the sea... "i know it's tuna, but is it fish or chicken?" - those are words that wouldn't surprise me coming out of lee ann's mouth...
so here are a few lee ann stories...
lee ann worked in an office during the summer that i worked in during the school year... our supervisor was a pretty sarcastic guy... but he asked lee ann one day to drive over to our other offices and get some file folders... about 20-25... so lee ann drives to the other office and comes back with the file folders... and jon asks her to make one for every letter of the alphabet... lee ann makes a frustrated face and says, "jon, if i would've known that's what you were going to have me do, i would've gotten 23!!"
my sophomore year, i lived in a 2-story townhouse with 2 roommates... roommate lisa put a sign over the stairs that said "carpe diem" - lee ann came over after we moved in and i was giving her the tour... as we were walking down the stairs, lee ann looked at the sign and said, "carp... carpee... carpee dye-em...?" i'll give her credit because it's a different language... but it's a popular expression...
one time lee ann went with her boyfriend (now husband) to the movies... they were leaving and walking back through the theater... looking at the new releases... and the movie "man on the moon" was coming out... (the story of andy kauffman played by jim carrey)... so lee ann stops, looks at it and reads... "my name is andy... this is my pah-ster..." (like imposter without the im...) she stands there, looking confused... "pah?? ster?? paaaahhhhh-sterr...?? pahster... ?" - so after a few minutes, boyfriend/husband joseph looks at her and says, "you do know it's poster, right?" - then she says, "oh... pohster..."
one time lee ann and her friend julie went to a baseball game with their friend matt... about half way through the game, lee ann looks at julie and says, "who are we playing..." - and julie says, "tuck-son"... lee ann looks at julie and says, "julie, it's not "tuck-son" - it's "toookson!!! matt just laughed... "it's tucson..."
okay - last one... lee ann came up to me one day and says, "did you know that if you hold your arm in the air for a really long time, you can forget that you have your arm in the air?" evidently, she and julie had tried it and they forgot they had their arms in the air...
there are more, but you get the idea... i'll stop there...
the thing is... as dumb as she is, she's so cute... and fun... so it's more fun to just laugh together and have fun with it... she's not ever embarassed about it... and she's well-liked... yes, sometimes it takes a little patience on joseph's part... but the laughs can definitely be worth it... and she's really bright... she's not an idiot... she just sometimes says really stupid stuff... which i'm thinking might be the case with jessica simpson...
and as irritating as i find jessica simpson, it's funny... it's fun to laugh... obviously it doesn't bother her that bad... she can laugh at herself... so it works...
so i'm enjoying my epiphany... friend lee ann is my version of jessica simpson... (pictures below...)
this weekend, for some reason, i've been inundated with jessica simpson... newlyweds has been on mtv a lot... and then tonight, the rerun of when jessica and nick were on snl was on... and as i was watching it, it hit me... jessica simpson is just like my friend lee ann...
i could see lee ann confused about chicken of the sea... "i know it's tuna, but is it fish or chicken?" - those are words that wouldn't surprise me coming out of lee ann's mouth...
so here are a few lee ann stories...
lee ann worked in an office during the summer that i worked in during the school year... our supervisor was a pretty sarcastic guy... but he asked lee ann one day to drive over to our other offices and get some file folders... about 20-25... so lee ann drives to the other office and comes back with the file folders... and jon asks her to make one for every letter of the alphabet... lee ann makes a frustrated face and says, "jon, if i would've known that's what you were going to have me do, i would've gotten 23!!"
my sophomore year, i lived in a 2-story townhouse with 2 roommates... roommate lisa put a sign over the stairs that said "carpe diem" - lee ann came over after we moved in and i was giving her the tour... as we were walking down the stairs, lee ann looked at the sign and said, "carp... carpee... carpee dye-em...?" i'll give her credit because it's a different language... but it's a popular expression...
one time lee ann went with her boyfriend (now husband) to the movies... they were leaving and walking back through the theater... looking at the new releases... and the movie "man on the moon" was coming out... (the story of andy kauffman played by jim carrey)... so lee ann stops, looks at it and reads... "my name is andy... this is my pah-ster..." (like imposter without the im...) she stands there, looking confused... "pah?? ster?? paaaahhhhh-sterr...?? pahster... ?" - so after a few minutes, boyfriend/husband joseph looks at her and says, "you do know it's poster, right?" - then she says, "oh... pohster..."
one time lee ann and her friend julie went to a baseball game with their friend matt... about half way through the game, lee ann looks at julie and says, "who are we playing..." - and julie says, "tuck-son"... lee ann looks at julie and says, "julie, it's not "tuck-son" - it's "toookson!!! matt just laughed... "it's tucson..."
okay - last one... lee ann came up to me one day and says, "did you know that if you hold your arm in the air for a really long time, you can forget that you have your arm in the air?" evidently, she and julie had tried it and they forgot they had their arms in the air...
there are more, but you get the idea... i'll stop there...
the thing is... as dumb as she is, she's so cute... and fun... so it's more fun to just laugh together and have fun with it... she's not ever embarassed about it... and she's well-liked... yes, sometimes it takes a little patience on joseph's part... but the laughs can definitely be worth it... and she's really bright... she's not an idiot... she just sometimes says really stupid stuff... which i'm thinking might be the case with jessica simpson...
and as irritating as i find jessica simpson, it's funny... it's fun to laugh... obviously it doesn't bother her that bad... she can laugh at herself... so it works...
so i'm enjoying my epiphany... friend lee ann is my version of jessica simpson... (pictures below...)
Apr 1, 2005
i love fridays...
not the restaurant... (i do like the restaurant, but that's not what i was talking about...)
it's friday afternoon... i'm supposed to work for 19 more minutes... however... i think i'm going to (gasp) leave early...
18 minutes... i've hit the wall, and i am going to work at home some this weekend... plus i need to go to barnes and noble and pick up a book - find one, actually - on dreamweaver, so i can figure some stuff out so my work website doesn't look like crap anymore...
17 minutes... but here's a fun friday quote... (it's actually not about friday, but it includes the word friday and it makes me laugh...)
"you can't have thanksgiving without turkey... it's like fourth of july with no apple pie, or friday with no two pizzas..." - i might as well go ahead and give amy the points... it's one of her favorite episodes of the show, even...
16 minutes... i can't remember the last time i left early... i can't even remember the last time i left on time... not that i'm keeping score...
15 minutes... checking my email one last time... closing out the windows...
14 minutes... i'm really going to do it this time...
yea!!! it's the weekend!!!
it's friday afternoon... i'm supposed to work for 19 more minutes... however... i think i'm going to (gasp) leave early...
18 minutes... i've hit the wall, and i am going to work at home some this weekend... plus i need to go to barnes and noble and pick up a book - find one, actually - on dreamweaver, so i can figure some stuff out so my work website doesn't look like crap anymore...
17 minutes... but here's a fun friday quote... (it's actually not about friday, but it includes the word friday and it makes me laugh...)
"you can't have thanksgiving without turkey... it's like fourth of july with no apple pie, or friday with no two pizzas..." - i might as well go ahead and give amy the points... it's one of her favorite episodes of the show, even...
16 minutes... i can't remember the last time i left early... i can't even remember the last time i left on time... not that i'm keeping score...
15 minutes... checking my email one last time... closing out the windows...
14 minutes... i'm really going to do it this time...
yea!!! it's the weekend!!!
eerie kind of quiet...
i pulled up the office late today... i got stuck in traffic (i don't know how that is possible in the suburbs, but nevertheless... it was construction traffic)... but when i got to work, there were 3 other cars in the parking lot... only one of them is someone who works in my area, and he stays in the print shop... i don't see him a lot during the day, plus i think he's in a bad mood... so i'll stay hidden away in my cubicle...
this is the fourth block of time this week when my office area has been eerily quiet... creepy quiet... the kind of quiet that is in scary movies right before the scary music plays and something bad happens... when it's too quiet...
so i turn on music and continue to blog...
i got a wedding invitation in the mail this morning (actually yesterday, but i didn't check the mail until this morning)... a friend from college... actually one of my good friends while i was in college... of course, as with most friends from college, we drifted apart... she's getting married in 3 weeks and another one of my good friends (who was a good friend in college) is getting married in june... i can't go to either of the weddings... i was supposed to be in the june wedding... but money won't allow me to even go... there were 4 of us (good friends in college)... one got married december 2003, the other two in the next couple of months... and then there's me... (i have blogged about this before...) i just didn't think i'd be the last one... i guess someone had to be... and there are very cool things i've gotten to do that they haven't... i spent a semester overseas... i'll have a masters in may (which none of them have)... i live really far away from "home" and they all (right now) live within a few hours of their "homes"...
am i jealous? honestly? a little... it was discussed quite a bit last night... today i am... and it figures that it's april fools day...
this took me over an hour to finish... and the people all trickled in... it's not so quiet anymore... i guess i should get some work done...
this is the fourth block of time this week when my office area has been eerily quiet... creepy quiet... the kind of quiet that is in scary movies right before the scary music plays and something bad happens... when it's too quiet...
so i turn on music and continue to blog...
i got a wedding invitation in the mail this morning (actually yesterday, but i didn't check the mail until this morning)... a friend from college... actually one of my good friends while i was in college... of course, as with most friends from college, we drifted apart... she's getting married in 3 weeks and another one of my good friends (who was a good friend in college) is getting married in june... i can't go to either of the weddings... i was supposed to be in the june wedding... but money won't allow me to even go... there were 4 of us (good friends in college)... one got married december 2003, the other two in the next couple of months... and then there's me... (i have blogged about this before...) i just didn't think i'd be the last one... i guess someone had to be... and there are very cool things i've gotten to do that they haven't... i spent a semester overseas... i'll have a masters in may (which none of them have)... i live really far away from "home" and they all (right now) live within a few hours of their "homes"...
am i jealous? honestly? a little... it was discussed quite a bit last night... today i am... and it figures that it's april fools day...
this took me over an hour to finish... and the people all trickled in... it's not so quiet anymore... i guess i should get some work done...
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